Dear person or persons,
The past few weeks have been strenuous, for multiple parties. I think we both have a few things that we didn't mean to say but I want to make sure I get a few things straight:
I WILL NOT apologize for my life choices. I WILL NOT be made to feel guilty about my life choices, either. I am completely comfortable with my body and who I am as an individual. Sexuality is absolutely not a bad thing along with dating to find out who or what you like. Neither is being monogamous and choosing to be with the one who makes you feel alive. I may also have an unconventional way of doing things but I have had to fight multiple battles to get where I am. Do you understand what it is like to wake up and be on a cot in the "Youth Welcome Center", not knowing if you will be put in foster care or fall back into a pit that is the life of your mother? Do you know what it feels like to see everyone go on break while wondering where you will end up or realizing that you don't have a "home" to go to? What about attending a university full time and working part time because you are independently paying for everything on your own? So, I hope that you can learn to be aware of others and their struggles around you whether they be big or small and that you can learn to be grateful for what you have.
As for the situation that all parties involved are aware of, I WILL NOT be made guilty for what has occurred. I decided to reach out to someone who could relate to me when I had no one. That should not/ is not a crime. I also reveled the truth of the matter after multiple stressful things occurred on both sides. I WILL NEITHER accept the idea that I was entirely in the wrong. You lied. I "betrayed". You hid things from me that we had agreed to "share". I told someone the truth. Regardless of whatever happened, now that we are going separate ways it can all go behind us.
As for everyone else who is probably curious at to what happened, that is not the point. The point simply is: I will no longer take (pardon my French) shit from people. I embrace my life and how to live it separately from you, get over it. And, if you want to at all come into my life and attempt to change the way I feel, how I think and embrace my individuality, you can get up and leave. Now, what I am not saying is that you don't have a right to an opinion and nor is it un-valuable. You opinion is valuable and your opinion is a part of your individuality. Just don't threaten mine.
Through this experience and the other experiences that the universe has oh so thoughtfully plotted into my life this week, I have learned that I will never cease to stand up for myself whether the individual is big or small, friend or CEO. I WILL NOT be made to feel guilty about that either. As long as I am not nasty (as in calling names and using my version of the French language) or physically harming anyone, I have the right to defend and protect myself. I also have the right to defend and protect my space, something I have been fighting for my entire life.
Here are hopes for a new beginning and that all war cannons, missiles and guns are now at cease fire. I wish you the best, you are a smart cookie. You are beautiful and valuable and I hope you recognize your worth. If you ever need anything, understand that although we have our differences you can always seek my help. Happy Holidays to all!
The past few weeks have been strenuous, for multiple parties. I think we both have a few things that we didn't mean to say but I want to make sure I get a few things straight:
I WILL NOT apologize for my life choices. I WILL NOT be made to feel guilty about my life choices, either. I am completely comfortable with my body and who I am as an individual. Sexuality is absolutely not a bad thing along with dating to find out who or what you like. Neither is being monogamous and choosing to be with the one who makes you feel alive. I may also have an unconventional way of doing things but I have had to fight multiple battles to get where I am. Do you understand what it is like to wake up and be on a cot in the "Youth Welcome Center", not knowing if you will be put in foster care or fall back into a pit that is the life of your mother? Do you know what it feels like to see everyone go on break while wondering where you will end up or realizing that you don't have a "home" to go to? What about attending a university full time and working part time because you are independently paying for everything on your own? So, I hope that you can learn to be aware of others and their struggles around you whether they be big or small and that you can learn to be grateful for what you have.
As for the situation that all parties involved are aware of, I WILL NOT be made guilty for what has occurred. I decided to reach out to someone who could relate to me when I had no one. That should not/ is not a crime. I also reveled the truth of the matter after multiple stressful things occurred on both sides. I WILL NEITHER accept the idea that I was entirely in the wrong. You lied. I "betrayed". You hid things from me that we had agreed to "share". I told someone the truth. Regardless of whatever happened, now that we are going separate ways it can all go behind us.
As for everyone else who is probably curious at to what happened, that is not the point. The point simply is: I will no longer take (pardon my French) shit from people. I embrace my life and how to live it separately from you, get over it. And, if you want to at all come into my life and attempt to change the way I feel, how I think and embrace my individuality, you can get up and leave. Now, what I am not saying is that you don't have a right to an opinion and nor is it un-valuable. You opinion is valuable and your opinion is a part of your individuality. Just don't threaten mine.
Through this experience and the other experiences that the universe has oh so thoughtfully plotted into my life this week, I have learned that I will never cease to stand up for myself whether the individual is big or small, friend or CEO. I WILL NOT be made to feel guilty about that either. As long as I am not nasty (as in calling names and using my version of the French language) or physically harming anyone, I have the right to defend and protect myself. I also have the right to defend and protect my space, something I have been fighting for my entire life.
Here are hopes for a new beginning and that all war cannons, missiles and guns are now at cease fire. I wish you the best, you are a smart cookie. You are beautiful and valuable and I hope you recognize your worth. If you ever need anything, understand that although we have our differences you can always seek my help. Happy Holidays to all!
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